Now, as for that happening... my dreams are getting hotter now that I am talking to a few guys who are trying to get me to give in. Maybe I have found the right guy already, or maybe he is still out there. I would love to share with everyone one of my very favorite dreams so that people can know exactly what I am hoping to do.
I do think I will need to be forced into this. I am like a moth searching the flame, so I will come closer and closer... but ultimately I fear to be burnt. I dream I will find a man who will force me to be stupid. A sane mother of two and loyal married wife doesnt go onto the Internet and agree to webcam for strange men. I want to be made to do it. I want a Black man to tell me that I owe it to Him. For white guilt. For the shameful ways that Niggers were treated as slaves. It is my turn to make amends. I have excited my stud now, and I have to make him happy.
I wont do anything illegal or harmful to my kids... but I will take risks. The danger of getting caught excites me. I think I actually want to get caught in most of my fantasies. A couple of years ago I was playing with a white guy online in another situation. He ordered me to undress in front of an opened window while some of the neighbor college boys were in their backyard having drinks. I obeyed and it turned me on so much to know that they all unquestionably saw me as a slut. I dont know how close I was to getting fucked that night, but I want to be pushed to the limits. I want to be corru... Les hele novellen
